No matter where you go... there you are.

Beautiful sunset afterglow behind distant mist-shrouded island with understated luxury resort in foreground.
    I think the title is from Buckaroo Bonzai or something like that... one of those movies all my friends thought was pure genius that I thought was, well, to use today’s terminology, meh.

  Anyway, point being,

you are who you are no matter where you are.

I guess that doesn’t sound any deeper or less meh than Buckaroo’s version of it, but at least it's a different way to stay it, right?

  What it really comes down to is that I've been depressed for a few weeks now, which is a bit unusual for me these days (usually there’s at least a day or two of hypomania in there), and here I am now, on vacation, and I got a bit of a reprieve while flying, a hint of stoke, but now that I’m here, the Big Black Dog is back. Was it a black dog? A blue bear? I can’t quite remember what my friend used to call his depression, but it was damn poetic.

  Maybe I m just tired. I am definitely tired. Maybe I m a bit off because my circadian clock doesn t match the world around me. Or because my medications were off today. Or maybe I’m just depressed because no matter where I go, there I am.

  Yeah... pretty sure that’s it.

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